Missing Mommy

More than a year ago, I wrote about missing my mom in another blog. I would like to share that article in this site, so here it goes...

It's been three years. Life has never been the same without you, Mommy. It's been a hard, long journey and I know that a harder and longer one is ahead. A lot has happened and we know you were with us in each significant event. But we're okay so don't worry.

I am a mother now and I feel truly blessed that your memories inspire me to be the best mom that I can be. I know you were with me throughout my entire pregnancy and even after.
Honestly, when I first found out that I was pregnant a part of me got scared. I know that you know how much I wanted and how hard I prayed for a baby. But the thought of going through it without you to guide me brought anxieties that were a little bit hard to handle. In fact, the night I learned about my pregnancy, sometime in the middle of my sleep, I cried. I remember Ron holding me close as if to comfort me. I did not need to tell him why because I knew he knew what I was thinking. You have always been in my thoughts and prayers. I have always missed you, Mommy.

When I learned that we're going to have a girl I got excited for you. I know how much you loved playing with Kyla and Aiya when they were still small. The entire time I prayed that you would help me make it through. And Ron and I believe you did. For when after I've given birth, when I've gone back to my hospital room with him, we said our prayers and thanked God for sending you to help me and for not making it too difficult for me. I did really well with the pushing. Idol kita e.

I continue to miss you everyday. With each small breakthrough in my and my daughter's life I would always wish there was a chance for me to see your reactions, hear your comments and your sweet laughter.

But I know you're happier where you are right now. And I'm sure you always watch over all of us. And I have no doubt that you look upon my princess with so much joy and pride. And I'm certain that you love her the way you've always loved everyone of us.

Reese and Kassy might have never seen you, but they will surely know you. They will hear happy stories about you. They will admire your strength and faith. They will love you and wish that they may immitate your goodness and that they may live their lives to the fullest just as you did.

I love you mommy and I miss you so much.